dont remind me..

please..
please...
please....
please dont remind me about my past..
i forget cos i forgive you..
when you remind me, i feel so fragile..
if you poke me once, i will broke apart..

i hate myself when i remember sth i dont like..
not bcos i am the one who make mistake..
bcos i will remember the heart broken feeling.. it make me feel like crying.. then i will accused you for everything..

bcos you leave me, i try to find someone to accompany me when i'm all alone.. and i found him.. he.. a bastard who broke everything about me, he who make my life miserable, he who ruin everything.. everything happen bcos YOU LEFT ME...

it doesnt mean i hate you.. i will never hate you bcos you will be my other half.. but i do hate myself bcos accused you for sth like that although it was all my fault.
so, please dont remind me about what had happened before.. i'm begging you.. dont make me hate myself more...